The only thing I truly wanted
was peace of heart
and peace of mind.
Not the kind that comes from checking out or escaping,
but the kind that wraps around you like warm light.
The kind that stays,
even when life doesn’t.
And here’s what I learned:
That kind of peace doesn’t come from other people changing.
It doesn’t come from getting more done or finally arriving somewhere.
It comes from one place:
I had to stop being mean to myself.
It wasn’t loud.
There was no grand moment.
Just a quiet shift.
One day, I decided:
If I want peace, I have to stop making myself the place of war.
So I began building self-trust.
Not perfection. Not performance. Just trust.
I wrote down five characteristics I genuinely value.
These would be my criteria—not the world’s.
And I started watching myself—not with judgment,
but with a quiet, kind observer inside me.
I turned it into a game:
The Quality Control Inspector.
I imagined myself on a factory line with a clipboard,
checking:
“Is this thought aligned with my values? Is this choice?”
No blame. Just awareness.
And slowly, I stopped abandoning myself to earn love.
I stopped performing or pleasing or proving.
I was all of me—
the admired one, the embarrassed one,
the compliant one, the competent one,
the rebel, the queen.
I loved them all equally.
I stopped needing to be thin, smart, married, accomplished.
I just loved being with me.
Not in a “better than anyone else” kind of way,
but in the quiet joy of knowing we’re all good—
and I get to be me,
for one more sacred day.
I’m sharing this now because so many of us are quietly exhausted—
not from doing too much,
but from being at war with ourselves.
That shift changed everything.
I became a protector of my energy.
Carolyn Myss calls it becoming an energetic banker—
deciding where I invest.
So now, when a friend says:
“Do you want to know what Julia and Anna were saying about you?”
And a curious part of me wants to pull up a chair and sip the tea…
I choose not to.
Because peace of mind and peace of heart
are more important than being “in the know.”
When I stopped investing energy in what didn’t serve my highest self,
I gained access to something far greater:
My own wisdom.
My own intuition.
My purpose.
My clarity.
My courage.
And in that quiet friendship within,
I began to heal.
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If you’re craving this kind of peace too,
come join me in the Love Clarity Inner Circle—
where we gather for 4 to 6 live sessions a month
and learn from people who are actually living this way.
It’s one of the only spaces I know
where transformation happens quietly,
gently, and permanently.